A great day to have cancer

Nantucket, MA.
April 8th, 2013
The campaign continues…
 

Dearest Friends,

So much love to all of you whom have continued to offer your support. I am continually humbled by the generosity of you all; near and far. I can honestly attest that only other time I have felt this level of deep primordial human connection and love was the day my son Griffin was born. It has been and continues to be  AWEsome.

Since my diagnosis on March 15th, I have had all kinds of tests and procedures, and am now comfortably navigating my treatment plan. To those of you who have sweetly offered up alternatives to the traditional Western medical approach, please know that your suggestions are appreciated, but that my family and I are fully committed to our current path. Please respect that our decision to seek treatment at Mass General Hospital is final (I say this with the utmost love and respect).

I have this amazing portal into my heart now, and I fully intend to use it.

portocath

Although it may surprise some of  you that I have embraced chemotherapy, I have complete faith that it is the right choice for me at this time. With the support of the Caitlin Marcoux Charitable Fund and donated services, I am thrilled to be able to  supplement my infusions with weekly Acupuncture  with Tammy Belanger,  bodywork with Casey Boukus and regular chiropractic care at Nantucket Family Chiropractic, with Dr. Mindy Levin. I have also begun practicing yoga with Sheri Perelman.

Most of you know I am an avid juicer already, and Jenny Bence has begun force feeding me a steady diet of wheat grass (read here to hear all about the benefits of this power-packed little plant). I am also pursuing colonic therapy, jin shin jyutsu, and Reiki.

So as you can see I am keeping myself tuned up and as in balance as I can be under the circumstances.

It is also my goal to begin each day with a big glass of alkalizing lemon water, 15 minutes of meditation,  a gratitude practice of some kind (journaling, thank-you note writing, and intention setting) and 20-60 minutes of gentle yoga. So far I’ve successfully done this the past three days in a row and hope to hold myself accountable for each remaining day of my treatment.

As I said in my Rebelle Society post last week, no man is an island, and neither am I. I don’t think so highly of myself that I cannot accept help. For me individual counseling has been an ongoing part of my emotional and spiritual wellbeing. Now that I have cancer, I think it’s even more important. I’m also a big fan of couples’ therapy. So if I could write that piece again, I would add #11: Get a Therapist.

(incidentally, there will be a follow up to that Rebelle piece that will probably included several more tips, so if you have one you’d like to share please feel free to comment on this blog below).

In any event, the chemotherapy is going well. I already feel like my tumor shrinking, and I have less pain in my right breast. There have been side-effect of course, but so far I feel lucky that I’ve been able to work a little and there, and it has had less of an impact than I had anticipated.

I preemptively cut off all my hair at Darya’s Salon last Monday night, so don’t be too shocked when you see me all punked out and Billie Idol-like. I want to send out a HUGE shout-out to Darya Afshari for being an amazing source of support and sexy inspiration, and to my Cancer Ninjas:  Julie, Heather, Alison, Ariel, Emily, Megan, Patti, Tracy, Elisa, Kristen, Melissa and Siobhain for being there with me every cut of the way.

Haircutting Angles

 

I have good days and bad. I’m exhausted from the day I get my infusion (Day One) through day 3 or 4. On a good day, like today, I feel almost normal. On a bad day I have headaches, bone pain, joint pain, anxiety and lots and lots of bloody noses… but this I can take in stride, and it feels like little to sacrifice for the chance of living a long and beautiful life.

 

Until the next update…

Love & Light,

Caitlin

 

Comments

  1. caitlin!!!!!!!!!!!!

    oh my goodness, my thoughts are with you. you are such a strong courageous woman. i feel like your choice in treatment is INCREDIBLE. you will come out of this even stronger of a warrior than you already are! sending you SO much love and positivity, from my heart to yours.

    in light,
    hayley

  2. Stay strong and know you are not alone ! I am 33, a single mom, nutritionist, newly certified yoga teacher… cancer doesn’t happen to healthy girls right? Sigh.. I am also a 2 year bc survivor. Love the hair by the way :). I also rocked the Billy Idol locks prior to chemo- awesome!! Reiki, accupuncture, green juice, wheatgrass and a host of other supplements helped so very much… stay strong on your path. Though I do not know you, I know you have the support and love from wonderful people near and far. Do not be afraid to reach out :). Rooting for you from Canada xo!

    • Sylvie,
      Thank you for reaching out. Congratulations on your survivor-hood, and getting your YTT! I have a phone consultation with a nutritionist this afternoon, but if you have any research or tips on diet, I’d love for you to email me. I eat pretty clean – but am interested in things that help detox the liver. caitlin@caitlinmarcoux.net
      Yay BC Sisters in Canada!
      Love,
      Cait

  3. tiffany says:

    you blow me away little lady with your strength, attitude and perseverance!!
    Looks like a spectacular day on one of my favorite beaches… I am glad you are getting all sorts of healing energy from it!!

  4. valerie hall says:

    Caitlin, you are an inspiration. I feel so honored to have been your teacher. My thoughts are with you through all of this. If anyone can beat this, you can!

    • Hi Valerie,
      So nice to hear from you! Thank you for your support. Sending you back so much love.
      XX,
      Caitlin

  5. You are an amazing person and are attacking this like you embrace life. Thank you for letting us share this journey with you and know, it takes and island and you have one.
    XOXO healing wishes and white light….

  6. As Hildee says “Home” (OM)…many happy wishes sent to you. xo

  7. Monique says:

    You’re staying strong, very admirable!

  8. Your video message was the most uplifting part of this day for me. Nantucket is beautiful and definitely a place to be if you are facing a challenge, but YOU, Caitlin, are its treasure right now! You are one tough cookie and I’m in awe of you! Bless you. Love and prayers!

  9. Melissa Swim says:

    You have so much wisdom from your journey already……. you inspire me. Sending you so much good healing energy and love.

  10. Thanks for this! I was videoing myself today to post on YouTube and watched and hated what i saw. Not my voice, or what I heard just seeing my 43 year old self. You reminded me today of the ferocity of our strength and power, the beauty of our scars and the trust that doing what feels right inside, is indeed what is right.

    thanks for inspiring me. #momtomom

    • Flying Yogini,
      We LOVED getting our special cancer care package in the mail yesterday. Griffin is wearing his Batman t-shirt today!
      Stay fierce!
      Om,
      Cait

  11. We here across the beautiful waters are with you in spirit! great attitude! you are inspiring all of us!

    I am in awe of your strength :)

    Rock on!!!!

    Annika

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